The greatest happiness in life is the conviction that we are loved -- loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves. I bring you my thoughts on life, songs from my guitar, and a personal experiences to hopefully inspire and encourage. These ramblings come from my own encounters with a God so faithful to me by showing me everyday the best way to His grace.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

New Song in progress

I've started working on a new song last night, here are the lyrics and below it is the music- the interpretation of the song is up to the listener- whatever it means to you.

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I'm so tired of waiting for so many things to change
And I know in my heart it'll never really happen so why
Do I keep waiting for you to come around to come around

All I want is for you to believe but I don't think
That you can see the person I'm trying to be
When you look at me all you see is misunderstandings
I'm just not the person you make me out to be

I know some things just aren't worth fighting for
But just this once you need to stand for me
I know we've both done things and lost some trust
But just this once you need to fight for me

Can we give it one more chance, can we give it one more go
Baby don't give up on us, just once more for the road
I'll never give up on you even if you want me to
Cause my heart won't be beating, I can't live without you.

*Let me know what you think
this is an audio post - click to play

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Cool Song Lyrics

This song by Nada Surf has some cool lyrics I wanted to share, enjoy- it's off the album "The Weight is a gift"

To make a mountain of your life is just a choice
But i never learned enough to listen to the voice that told me
Always love
Hate will get you every time
Always Love
Don't wait til the finish line

Slow demands come around, squeeze the air and keep the rest out
It helps to write it down even when you then cross it out

But always love
Hate will get you every time
Always love
Even when you want to fight

Self-directed lives I want to know what it'd be like to
aim so high above every card that you get dealt. You...

Always love
Hate will get you every time
Always love
Hate will get you and I've been held back by something
You said to me quietly on the stairs
You said
Hey you good ones

Thursday, January 19, 2006


Well, due to me having a naturally and habitualy "blonde moment" I locked myself out of my house on the night of my audition and had to re-schedule it because I couldn't get in my house to get my guitar and amp! Geez, what an idiot! Anywya, they were real cool about it and my new audtion is January 31st- which is cool cause it gives me more time to work on my solos and lead guitar which is what they are looking for.
I'll keep you posted!

Tuesday, January 17, 2006


Well guys,

Keep me in your prayers, I am going tonight for an audition with a christian rock band- they are looking for a guitarist and I have been practicing my butt off! I just pray if it's God's will that I am what they are looking for and they are what I'm looking for!


Monday, January 09, 2006

My Space

Just a cool note- you can check out myspace, it' got soem pics and stuff on there and it's cool cause can find people that you lost touch with.

It's free and cool, so I hope to see you guys on there!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

New Songs

These are some new songs I am working on. Let me know what you think. Here are the lyrics.

The first one:

It's hard to sleep it's hard to be
Without you
It's hard to know what to do
Without You
I got so used to having you around
That I don't like being without you
Are you thinking about me cause I know
I'm thinking about you

Do you miss me in your sleep
Has my scent from your pillow gone away
Do you wonder if you would've said
Those things you never said
Would I still be there to stay

The Second one:

The more I bring you in
The more you shut me out
I don't want to be a part of this
Cause the more you bring me in
Is the more I shut you out
Why do you want to be a part of this

I might be the one who says I've had enough
But I'll be the one to be there when life gets too rough

If you believe in me and I believe in you
Together we can make these dreams come true

Well these are both works in progress. I will update as soon as my writer's block stops freezing up!
this is an audio post - click to play
this is an audio post - click to play

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

No room for doubt

"A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory."

A new year symbolizes opportunity; a chance for new beginnings. Somehow every year, we get the emotional feeling or motivation if you will that we get to start over. It's a new year so we get to make a fresh start.

Why does it takes a recognized holiday for us to want to somehow redeem our past year's regrets or produce newfound goals or dreams.

Whatever our reasoing, or how we have come to that place, the fact that we are wanting to change in a postive way and try and become better people is a good step.

But good intentions only go so far. It's quite a dichotomy of realizations. On one hand, we have to know that we can't do it on our own, we need God to gets us through, to guide us, we truly need His wisdom and His strength, His power to change us. But we have to know and believe in ourselves that we can do it- we can have the victory so to speak, and become whoever we choose to be.

A winner in any race, any contest must focus on the "prize" or victory to win. They must be focused and driven to the point where in their minds they are already celebrating their win. Not with cockyness, but with confidence.

As we focus on whatever "victory" we are striving for, act and walk it out as if you have already won. God has already given you the victory over your own self-doubts, others, or whatever. Remember, you have nothing to prove to anyone. Focus on Him and your victory, enjoy His involvement in your life, enjoy Him being with you all the time, and think about your priorities- should they be re-arranged at all this year?